a BIG confession

I HAVE A VERY BIG CONFESSION TO MAKE... I think I'm in LOVE with a very very very famous TURKISH ACTOR... I SWEAR THAT THIS TIME I WAS JUST CHECKING OUT WHAT HE HAS BEEN UP TO NOWADAYS... THIS IS INSANEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... I just wanted to get the LATEST news about him... I checked out his pictures... HE WAS VERY HANDSOME WHEN HE WAS YOUNG... LOOOOOOOOOOOOL... He is in his late 40s... TO BE HONEST, HE LOOKS SO YOUNG AND GOOD, BUT HE IS NOT MY TYPE, EITHER...

I FELT SOME INSTANT CONNECTION WITH HIM... I SWEAR THAT THIS TIME I WAS JUST STALKING SOMEONE FAMOUS TO STALK... WHAT IS MY RELATION TO THESE FAMOUS PEOPLE?

HE WILL NEVER KNOW ME... I JUST STALK...

I WON'T MENTION ABOUT HIS NAME, BUT I FEEL HE IS DESPERATELY ALONE AND HE ALWAYS LOOKS FOR TRUE LOVE AND HE AVOIDS HIMSELF GETTING ATTACHED WITH ANYONE... HE COULD HAVE SOME SECRET GAY HABITS, I AM VERY SURE...

I AM VERY VERY VERY INSANE... I LOVE HIM MUCH NOW... MAYBE THIS IS ANOTHER WAY TO MOVE ON FROM ANOTHER FAMOUS ACTOR... HOWEVER, THIS NEW ONE AND ME WILL NEVER INTERACT...

I LOVE THIS FAMOUS ACTOR ROMANTICALLY AT THE MOMENT... IT STARTED YESTERDAY, I JUST WANT TO UNDERSTAND HOW COME I CAN FALL FOR ANOTHER ONE SO EASILY?

WELL, HE IS SPIRITUAL... NO DOUBT ABOUT THAT... I AM VERY SPIRITUAL... MAYBE, IF I CAN INTERACT WITH HIM AS A SPIRITUAL PERSON, CAN IT GO ANYWHERE? 

HE IS EXTREMELY EDUCATED... HE HAS MANY DEGRESS, BUT I DO NOT THINK THAT I REALLY WANT SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME...

I AM VERY IN LOVE WITH HIM NOW... I GUESS HE IS VERY VERY DEPRESSED, BUT HE HAS A LOT OF PEOPLE AROUND HIM AND HE IS SO SOCIAL...

HE IS NOT INSECURE, BUT I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHAT IS MY REAL CONNECTION WITH THIS MIDDLE AGED MAN? THERE HAD BEEN MANY PEOPLE TOLD ME THAT I WILL END UP WITH SOMEONE OLDER THAN ME, BUT HE WILL BE VERY VERY DIFFERENT THAN OTHER MEN...

IS THIS ONE THE ONE? OR AM I DREAMING AGAIN?

WELL, I'M IN ISTANBUL AND AS I HAVE PSYCHIC POWERS AND ABILITIES, I HAVE A VERY HUGE CHANCE TO MEET HIM IN ISTANBUL... HOWEVER, I DO NOT REALLY KNOW IF I CAN LOVE THIS MAN FOR A WHOLE LIFETIME AND HE CAN FEEL ATTRACTED TO ME OR NO?

WELL, STALKING SEEMS A VERY DANGEROUS GAME BECAUSE I SWEAR THAT I JUST STALK AND THEN I END UP WITH GROWING FEELINGS FOR THE ONES I STALK...

HE IS AN ACTOR, BUT ALSO A THEATRE PLAYER... THUS, HE MIGHT BE A VERY VERY GOOD OPTION FOR ME TO GET INTO THE MEDIA FIELD... I JUST WANT TO TRY MY LUCK IN ALL WAYS...

IT LOOKS LIKE ALL THE JOBS I APPLIED FAILED... I JUST NEED TO MEET SOMEONE FROM THE WELL KNOWN WORLD AND MAKE ME GET IN... I JUST NEED ONE MORE CHANCE...

I LOVE THIS ACTOR SO MUCH, BUT THIS ACTOR IS A LONER, TOO...

MAYBE, WITH A FAKE ACCOUNT I WILL MESSAGE HIM...

I DO NOT WANT TO BE KNOWN...

HOWEVER, I GET ALL THIS THOUGHTS AND HIS FEELINGS AND IT IS A BIT WEIRD TO FEEL SO CLOSE TO HIM BECAUSE I JUST ENDED UP WITH A VERY VERY STRONG CONNECTION OR ROMANCE WITH SOMEONE ELSE WHO IS A HOLLYWOOD ACTOR...

MAYBE, IT WAS GOOD TO BE BACK TO TURKEY...

IF I REALLY DISAPPEAR, IT MEANS I GOT A GOOD GUY... OTHERWISE, I WILL WRITE HERE FOREVER...

LOL...

I THINK HE IS CUTE... HE NEEDS TO BE KISSED MUCH...  

I FEEL WEIRD...

TO BE CONTINUED...